If you haven't already, please ready my post Introducing Dynamite. I give a very thorough background to our journey into the world of autism. It was a long, arduous, winding journey to get to where we are today. I would have given my left arm (OK fine, probably not my arm. But I might have sacrificed a toenail) for someone in a similar situation to walk the twists and turns with me, to learn from and bounce ideas off of. There is no manual on how to raise a child on the spectrum in a Christ-centered fashion.
I found that the therapy did not seem to align itself completely with what I saw in Scripture. Because of my faith in God, I start with the assumption that Dynamite was not somehow exempt from the "Children, obey your parents in the Lord for this is right. Honor your father and mother, which is the first commandment with a promise." (I'm working from memory here, take it easy on me if it's not perfect). As such, it was not unreasonable to expect my child to obey me. I also began to notice that while the therapy he was receiving was very effective in teaching us about the challenges he faces as a result of his ASD and how to give him the necessary supports, it did not teach me how to use discipline to shape his heart and teach him to one day submit to his Lord and Savior. I've found that as a parent of a child on the spectrum, so much of your time and energy is spent discussing how to alleviate a lot of the struggles associated with your child's ASD. It's easy for the job of disciplining, teaching and instructing to get lost among all of the therapy and strategies you happen to be implementing at the time.
So, here is my approach to parenting my child as a WHOLE:
So, here is my approach to parenting my child as a WHOLE:
- Start by evaluating your motives. Are you focusing your attention and energy on alleviating your personal suffering? Or are you motivated by pursuing God's purpose for your life?
- I realized that almost 100% of my time and energy was focused on alleviating my perceived suffering due to Dynamite's frequent violent and explosive melt downs. It was making life difficult for me, and I wanted life to be easy, not difficult. Unfortunately, that is not a Biblical concept. We were not promised easy and convenient lives. John 16:33: "In this life you will have trouble, but take heart…I have overcome the world." 1 Peter 4:12: "Dear friends, do not be surprised at this painful trial you are suffering, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice that you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed." 1 Peter 2:20-21: "But how is it to your credit if you receive a beating for doing wrong and endure it? But if you suffer for doing good and you endure it, this is commendable before God. TO THIS YOU WERE CALLED, because Christ suffered for you, leaving you an example, that you should follow in his steps." Emphasis is obviously mine, but you get the point. We were not promised easy, convenient, pain-free lives. Accept your situation as it currently is, and take the focus OFF of yourself and ONTO Jesus. Make his priorities your priorities and you will have taken the most important step.
- Make sure your understanding of autism is as complete as possible. Do you know what supports your child needs in order to succeed?
- The internet is an amazing resource. If you don't have access to therapists who specialize in autism, be your own advocate. Read blogs of adults with autism to gain their perspective on navigating daily life. Get to know your child's weaknesses and challenges so you understand the supports s/he needs to succeed. For Dynamite, one of his biggest struggles is transitions. So, in the beginning he needed to have a picture schedule every single day to show what we would be doing that day. I had to carry it with us everywhere so he could erase each item once it was complete and see what was coming next. He also needed multiple warnings approaching each transition to know that the transition was approaching. Understanding your child's limitations is absolutely essential so that you can walk through each day feeling confident that you are not holding your child responsible for things that are outside of his/her control. If I were to simply announce to Dynamite at the playground "OK, time to go home!" and expect him to say "OK Mommy!" and come running, and then discipline him for not complying, that would be unfair.
- Figure out who's driving. Are you firmly in control of the car, or are you giving your challenging child the wheel on occasion?
- Who's driving the proverbial car of your parenting journey? Is it you, or is it your explosive little bundle of joy? If I was being honest, for a good chunk of Dynamite's life it was Dynamite. The problem with that is that your child can sense when they're in control. When a child like Dynamite can sense that he's really driving the car, it contributes to his anxiety because he knows that he has no clue how to drive. He might be happy that he's getting what he wants in the moment, but over time he will become more and more out of control. Here are some questions you can ask yourself to find out if you're in the driver's seat if you're not sure:
- Do you find yourself reorienting the world around said child hoping to avoid explosions, to the point of being unfair to your other children, spouse, friends, etc?
- Do you find yourself going back on previous statements you made in order to avoid a melt down?
- Are you frequently trying to comply with highly unrealistic demands to avoid a melt down?
- Do you find yourself looking the other way when you see your child being disrespectful or disobedient because you don't feel like fighting the battle?
- This certainly isn't a comprehensive list, but it's at least a start. In the beginning of this journey I would have given a whole-hearted "Yes!" to every single one of those, so do not feel badly if you answered yes to some (or all) as well. Children like Dynamite are challenging and draining in a way that most other children are not, and it is easy to get worn down and slip into "survival mode"
- Disobedience, search and destroy! If you're unsure where to begin, search for a defiant spirit and start your battle there.
- Life with Dynamite felt like a hot mess. We were spiraling out of control, and it felt overwhelming trying to figure out where to begin. After committing the matter to prayer, I felt the Lord telling me to seek out disobedience and start there. Many of Dynamite's blow ups and explosions were over things not being right in the world according to the way he saw things. He wasn't being disobedient, he was just overwhelmed and didn't know how to handle it. We bore with him during those things with as much patience as we could muster with the help of the Holy Spirit. But deliberate disobedience needed to have clear and consistent consequences every time, and we needed to find something that spoke to our son. I've found that the most popular form of discipline in most church circles is spanking. I am not opposed to spanking (as you know if you read the Introducing Dynamite post), but we found it to be completely ineffective with Dynamite. Dynamite's kryptonite happens to be computer. He LOVES watching Youtube videos on the computer, and taking computer time away turned out to be a strong motivator. I'm sure your child's motivator will be different, but it should be relatively easy to figure out. Just think about what they gravitate to throughout the day. When we asked Dynamite to do something (and the request was reasonable), if he chose to disobey we enacted immediate consequences and followed through, no matter how difficult.
- Patience, patience, and more patience. Seriously….P-A-T-I-E-N-C-E
- As I mentioned earlier, reading blogs written by adults with autism really helped me to gain perspective on Dynamite and foster as much empathy as possible. I found the more empathy I had, the more patience I had for a lot of Dynamite's daily "explosions". Also, the most obvious answer if you're lacking patience…daily time with the Lord. Children with ASD are typically bad sleepers, so it can be hard to find time to spend with the Lord each day. I personally sacrifice the extra 30 minutes of sleep and got up extra early to have a daily quiet time. Morning might not be the best time for you, but make sure you are making that a priority in your life and carving out time for that each day, no matter what the cost. It will help to keep your priorities in check.
If you find yourself walking a similar path, I encourage you to follow my blog and comment so we can walk the journey together. God bless!